The New Year

So apparently last year was my year… One of my colleagues was looking up Chinese Horoscopes and I’m the year of the Rabbit and 2011 was the year of the Rabbit.

She asked me if I had had a good year. I paused and thought about it. I have been through some hardships over the past year, but a lot of amazing things came out of it. So I settled with, “It was a very eye-opening year.”

Now its 2012, the year of the Dragon (which is her year) and although according to Chinese Horoscopes its not my year… I still feel that it is my year.

I want you to reflect and realize those things you want to do, what things you want to achieve within this year to make it your year.

I have a few New Years resolutions for this year and so far, although I have not started all of them the ones that I have started are making me feel extremely empowered and very much in control of my life and my well being.

The biggest two are mediation and little to no alcohol.

If you’ve read my previous posts you know I love meditation, though it can be trying at times, its rewards are amazing! So far I have been meditating before bed and it’s been great. I’ve started to reread Sally Kempton’s Meditation for The Love of It. I think making it not only something I do physically but also putting it into my life in other forms, i.e reading and educating myself on it really helps to make it a prominant thing in my life. I seriously recommend taking up meditation if you have issues with sleeping, stress, anxiety, etc. It can be hard work at times, but it makes your life much more enjoyable.

I was having a few issues near the end of my Holiday break and when I went to my doctor I was extremely suprised, and very happy that she wanted me to take up Meditation and Breathing Exercises.

I’ve had many different relationships with alcohol in my life. When I entered high school, alot of my peers were drinking, I wasn’t much for it. I was confident with going to parties completely sober and I’d end up having an awesome time. Then I fell subject to the fun that alcohol can cause. Since then its be one of the staples of being social and having fun. I really have nothing against this. But then I realized how much harm it was causing me and the people around me. I was feeling like complete shit for up to two days after a night of drinking, I was disappointing people I cared about and overall it just wasn’t in alignment with what I really wanted for myself. So on New Year Eve I had my last few drinks and I’ve had thirteen days being alcohol free.

You’ll notice that my New Years resolution was little to no alcohol. The last thing I wanted to do was feel pressured not to drink and to stress myself out if I wanted a glass of wine with dinner. But honestly I am so extremely happy with my choice. I saw how negatively it was effecting me and I made a serious change for my well being.

I’m not sure how long this will go on for and I do have my worries, but last night I was sitting at a table with six other people who were drinking and I didn’t feel the need be drinking with them. I still felt included.
Also my college have a Ski Trip coming up and its known for being party central. I’ve been worrying about it lately, wondering what it will be like, should I have a beer or two? Should I just not? Then I realized whatever choice I make then, I know I’ll have my best interest at heart, whether its to enjoy a nice cold beer or a glass of wine with my friends or to hang out sober.

Reflect on the things in your life and see how they make you feel physically and mentally. Are these things in alignment with what you really want out of your life?

Happy relfecting!
Tori J Wilcox


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